Ramadhan

Hello Blogspot...sorry for not coming by here for very long time, firstly I forgot its password, and secondly I have nothing to tell here, since I'd already written it on my another blog.. so, I try hard to remember my password, and taraaa!! this is it!! I can up date my blogspot :)

And today, is the 9th day of Ramadhan, which means, Id el Fitri is just 21 days to go..and so far, I can hardly wait for Id el Fitri, I miss my family and pals so badly!! it's been almost 7 months I didn't back home...huhuhu...that's why I am so excited that I'll be home soon :)
so, Happy Ramadhan Mubarak!! may Allah bless us :)

a bit bit bit up date..

It's already 2 months since I applied new title for my mini thesis..but, I haven't made any remarkable progress yet. I am stuck with the chapter 2, and 3...moreover, my department has announced the new method in writing thesis couple weeks ago, and it feels like, ruining my mood!!
But, it's okay, let's do it!! I do believe that I can make it!!!!

up date today

Today, as I've told you all before, I got my second consultation session with my lecturer, it was fun, and great!! by the way, today is Mr. Reza's birthday...happy bday my lecturer!! wish you all the best!! : ) so, we commenced our consultation with a small birthday surprise party hehehe...
Mmm..back to topic, I have to change my tittle again, my lecturer told me that I'll meet so many obstacles and troubles if I still use the tittle..so, he gave me new alternative, of course I accepted it!! :) it doesn't matter for me, because the most important thing for me is, I get new progress day by day, so I can confidently say that I can graduate by August...amin!!!
keep fighting guys!!!

re-spirit-ize part 2

been growing in a broken family, sometimes can be so hard especially for me..I've lost my childhood and all the joyful think in it, I never feel happy when I was home, there is always something wrong if I was there, even until now, I never really can feel how "home sweet home" feels like. Sometimes, I wonder, what if my mom and my dad never divorced, and they still be a couple, may be my life will never be this hard. At least, I can get full love from both of them...
But, I never give a damn with all of this things..I mean, no use regretting something that has been passed, and it can't be turned back again..Now, the only thing I have to do is struggling!! I don't want to lose my future like I've lost my past, "my supposed to be delightful childhood"..I don't wanna be a loser anymore, a man who can't do anything to change his own life...
I have talent, I have opportunity to be success, I am not bad in class, and I know that God has given everybody a special talent so they have the same probability to be successful people...
So, this is my turn...showing that I can be better!! I'll do my best!!!!

re-spirit-ize

Yay!! I've already found 4 of 7 questions that have been given to me, it means, I still have 3 questions to answer, I hope I can find it immediately amin! My thesis is still on progress...anyway, I'd like to congratulate my friend, Dwi Annisa Harahap, she is the first person in HI unpad 2006 who graduate, and the greatest thing of all is, her graduation day coincided with her birthday coolness!! isn't it?! I bet that was her best birthday gift ever!!! congratulation and happy bday dwi!! wish all the best for you! :)
My attendance to dwi's graduation ceremony has inspired me a lot, not to give up, and never stop struggling to reach my dream..I do believe that everything is possible, as long as we never stop trying even if we failed..so, start from now, I am gonna be tough more and more, no matter how hard the problem is, no matter how much the obstacle is, I am gonna make it!! for sure :) insyaAllah

Still in Trouble

I have some troubles with my internet connection in these 2 days, and it's so bugging me, because I can't open some web pages, includes my blog ..but now, the connection has been back to normal *(I hope)..at least, I can open my blog page and update it.. so relieving :)
Yesterday, I got a new source for my thesis, that is Barry Buzan and Ole Waever's book its tittle is "Regions and Powers The Structure of International Security" published by Cambridge University Press 2003". This book has not direct correlation with my thesis, but there are some aspect sthat can be used as consideration in explaining East Asian Community based on its history and its security problem..
Hmm...this friday is gonna be my first time having consultation with my lecturer..huhu, when I called him by phone yesterday, he said that we had to talk first, so he could decide whether he is able to guide me or not...*(I hope he can, because he is one of my favorite lecturer, since he is so responsible, and professional being a lecturer) so, please pray for me, pals.. :-)
and finally,have a nice day pals!!!

updating my thesis

my thesis is still ongoing and now, I am about to start new chapter..no! no! no! I haven't finished my first chapter yet, but, since I am stuck on it so I decide to skip it, and jump to next chapter, hope it will work.. Till now, Am still looking for the suitable approach and theory for my thesis, as I told before,in my last post, that there is a probability to use "neo-liberal institutionalism" to explain the phenomenon of regionalism between East Asian Country (Japan, China, and South Korea)..

and now, my problem is I can't find books or international journal as sources *(senior told me that at least I have to use 3-5 journals, while as far as I know, getting journal is not free, and it'll be a bit difficult finding journal in my faculty library..so I must go to other university's library..hufth!!) . Anyway, it's kinda weird for me, since my university is one of the best university in west java, and it is well known as university with good curriculum and facility, but in fact, the book's collection in its library is not as complete as I thought. pheww!

Talking about holiday, today is Chinese New Year, and Valentine's Day, so I wanna say "Happy Chinese New Year people!!! Gong Xi Fat Chai!!"!!! and for you who celebrate the Valentine's Day, I wanna say "Happy Valentine's Day!!" :-)

roll it back!

life is like counting down, from the day you were born, until the day you die..and it's full of surprises that sometimes we never expect. Just couple years ago, I was sick of choosing which department I would enter to, now, I am sick of finishing my thesis. Couple years ago, I was afraid of my failure to be accepted in university, now I am afraid of jobless after my graduation.
Time passes so fast, as thought it doesn't let us to take a rest, to take a deep breath and relax. everything must be fast, done quickly, without any excuse. My God!!!
this is so exhausting, sometimes I just want to scream out loud, and shake this stress away.. I miss my childhood badly..suddenly I want to be a child again, and rewind the happy memories

keep spirit, pals!!

morning all!! today, i woke up late, and almost missed morning pray, but, thankfully I didn't miss it. My first activity after praying was starting to do my thesis, I suddenly got some ideas, so, I just typed it before they vanished from my mind. while typing, I searched some data too, and got some..Alhamdulillah..hope this spirit in doing thesis will remain, so I can finish my thesis by August this year.
I am reading some books now, to find out which theories that I want to use for explaining my thesis, hope I choose the right one. Some friends suggest me to use liberal institutionalism, but I am still looking for other alternatives.
here are some books I read :
1. Pengantar Ilmu Hubungan Internasional by DR.Anak Agung Banyu Perwita & DR. Yanyan Mochammad Yani.
2. Regionalism in World Politics by Louis Fawcett & Andrew Hurrel
3. International Relations Theories : Discipline and Diversity by Tim Dunne, Milja Kurki & Steve Smith
I seek other books too, but, since the library still not open yet, seems like I must be more patient in finding other literature.
besides books, I also use internet references, like some sites that I've opened and bookmarked, I got many clues too, and am happy because of it.. :-)
so, people, whoever you are, whatever you do, keep spirit!! never give up!! and do not be afraid to take the risk! this is how we can get our success right?! it's better failed than do nothing..at least we can learn from our failure to be better, can't we?!

mmm..anyway, my dvd's trouble is getting worse, I think I should get it repaired,,because it's so bugging me..I want my laptop in fit condition..but, it said that repairing dvd can take so much money, while, I even don't have sufficient money for my self untill end of this month..hufth! just hope for the best :-(

Trouble!!!

gosh!! i am so upset!!! my laptop's dvd is broken I don't know why, since I rarely use it, I prefer using my dvd player that I bought couple months ago..arrgghhh!!! why it must happen when I am broke?! sh*t!! last time I used it, it still worked perfectly, but, it was a little bit hard to close, then I forced it, and TARA!!!! now, my dvd totally doesn't work at all..it can not detect every CD I insert into it, but the indicator lamp is still fine, arrghhh!!!
fyi, I am not a movie freak who rents many DVDs and play it in my dvd rw, I only use my dvd to copy some MP3 files, and some installation CDs..that's it!! iewhhhh!! I hate such situation! it's like a mood killer for me!!
I hope my laptop won't be in trouble again, at least untill I get my own job and I buy the new one..I am so afraid of this damage, because it will affect to my thesis, how can I do my thesis, meanwhile my laptop is being repaired, moreover if it takes more a day to fix?!!...huhuhu..(T,T)
God, please!!

first think first

Hi, all..how's life?! :-)
first of all, I'd like to introduce my self, my name is Didi, I am now in my last year in International Relations department in a state university...called Padjadjaran University, in Bandung, the capital city of west java Indonesia..
This blog will be written in English and French, depends on my mood in which language I want to write, but, please note that I am not good at both of those languages, I am still learning, and need more practice, that's why I use those languages in this blog. Actually, this is not my first blog, I have already had 2 blogs before, but one blog has been inactivated, so I have only one blog beside this one.. you can visit my blog anytime you want, feel free to click this so you can go to my another blog..
May be, this is it for today, the greeting and introduction...hope you enjoy it!! and happy blog-walking!! :-)