Still wanna be a diplomat?

This question is now getting even harder to answer.. to be honest, from the very bottom of my heart I would answer "capital YES", but, you wouldn't see me as excited as I used to! huhu.. since our government has made decision not to accept new civil servant this year, and may be until 2013, due to over-budgeting and efficiency, that's why I have to conduct the plan B!! yes, I don't wanna wait until 2013 by doing nothing, right?! I have to be more realistic too.
So, now, I am accepted in an international bank, and will start to work this month, the thing is, what if I finally enjoy my job there, and I decide not to continue dreaming to be a diplomat?! ahhh.. everything that I've been doing to reach that dream will end up like a waste. hmmm.. actually not that waste, I believe that nothing is in vain! everything has its own value, and it's worth struggling for what you've been dreaming of! yes, it is! My knowledge about international economics, would be very useful as a basic to start my banker job, well, may be it's not as specific as Economics student, but, hey, I know what is inflation, deflation, I know a little about export, import, tax, and so on, I know about supply and demand analysis, and stuff.. but yeah, as I told you before, not as specific as economics student.
Back to the question, if you ask me now, then there will be a big question mark on my mind, do I still want it?! can I!? of course I have to believe in my self, if I don't then who will?! so, while waiting until 2013, I can learn more, more, and more, about international current events, pay more attention to my surrounding, learn English and French again, and beneath it all, keep praying, keep believing, keep in faith!! yes! I CAN!

I wanna be a diplomat!!

Yes!! that's my dream! even I've been dreaming of it since I was a kid, okay, actually, when I was a kid, I often watched TV, especially "Dunia Dalam Berita" , there, I remember, the most favorite scene was when a President, or Prime minister, or king, or minister who is visiting Indonesia, they came out from aircraft, waving their hand, and smiling, while our President, and the officers have waited there, and give a warm welcome, with red carpet and bouquet.. that scene was really impressive for me, and since then, I've been interested in International Relations things.

And now, here I am, I've been graduated from my university, I took International Relations as my major, and am still waiting for open recruitment at ministry of foreign affairs, while preparing everything for it!! reading newspaper, improving my english and french skill, reading international relations theory's books, and so on...

I hope I could be accepted there this year, but if I fail, I am going to retry it next year, I'll never give up hope! I'll keep fighting!! chasing my dream, and making it true! because I am a diplomat!! :)