December to June

Time flies so fast, the last time I posted here was December 2011, and it's already June 2012, and surely there are so many things happen in my life, I have been through my hardest time, my grandma has passed away at May 1st 2012, and a week after, I was accepted as local staff for Indonesian Embassy in Quito Ecuador, but since I was still in grief of being left by my very beloved grandma I decided not to take this chance, the precious one.. :'( So sorry, but it's going to be hard for me, facing my hardest time in other country, away from my family. I need their support,and fortunately they support me to date,and respect my decision not to go to Quito, while waiting for new recruitment at Kemlu.

Dear Dad, and Mom, and my brothers and sister, thank you for being here, and giving me such a great support, you know, I have promised to my self that I won't let you all down again because of me, I will show you all that I will make it! chasing my dream, and make you all proud of me..

Dear beloved late grandma, I know that you're in the most beautiful place near God's throne, now.It's time for me to prove my love to you, I will always pray for your happiness there, I know that you deserve the best. You are a very nice person, full of love and you've taken care of people during your lifetime,, I love you so much, and miss you.. 

Now, it's time for me to re-prepare everything, my English language, my French and Spanish language, I also need to keep update with current issues, either local or international, and also improve my computer skill, and last but not least, I have to pray harder to God :)

Still wanna be a diplomat?

This question is now getting even harder to answer.. to be honest, from the very bottom of my heart I would answer "capital YES", but, you wouldn't see me as excited as I used to! huhu.. since our government has made decision not to accept new civil servant this year, and may be until 2013, due to over-budgeting and efficiency, that's why I have to conduct the plan B!! yes, I don't wanna wait until 2013 by doing nothing, right?! I have to be more realistic too.
So, now, I am accepted in an international bank, and will start to work this month, the thing is, what if I finally enjoy my job there, and I decide not to continue dreaming to be a diplomat?! ahhh.. everything that I've been doing to reach that dream will end up like a waste. hmmm.. actually not that waste, I believe that nothing is in vain! everything has its own value, and it's worth struggling for what you've been dreaming of! yes, it is! My knowledge about international economics, would be very useful as a basic to start my banker job, well, may be it's not as specific as Economics student, but, hey, I know what is inflation, deflation, I know a little about export, import, tax, and so on, I know about supply and demand analysis, and stuff.. but yeah, as I told you before, not as specific as economics student.
Back to the question, if you ask me now, then there will be a big question mark on my mind, do I still want it?! can I!? of course I have to believe in my self, if I don't then who will?! so, while waiting until 2013, I can learn more, more, and more, about international current events, pay more attention to my surrounding, learn English and French again, and beneath it all, keep praying, keep believing, keep in faith!! yes! I CAN!

I wanna be a diplomat!!

Yes!! that's my dream! even I've been dreaming of it since I was a kid, okay, actually, when I was a kid, I often watched TV, especially "Dunia Dalam Berita" , there, I remember, the most favorite scene was when a President, or Prime minister, or king, or minister who is visiting Indonesia, they came out from aircraft, waving their hand, and smiling, while our President, and the officers have waited there, and give a warm welcome, with red carpet and bouquet.. that scene was really impressive for me, and since then, I've been interested in International Relations things.

And now, here I am, I've been graduated from my university, I took International Relations as my major, and am still waiting for open recruitment at ministry of foreign affairs, while preparing everything for it!! reading newspaper, improving my english and french skill, reading international relations theory's books, and so on...

I hope I could be accepted there this year, but if I fail, I am going to retry it next year, I'll never give up hope! I'll keep fighting!! chasing my dream, and making it true! because I am a diplomat!! :)

Ramadhan

Hello Blogspot...sorry for not coming by here for very long time, firstly I forgot its password, and secondly I have nothing to tell here, since I'd already written it on my another blog.. so, I try hard to remember my password, and taraaa!! this is it!! I can up date my blogspot :)

And today, is the 9th day of Ramadhan, which means, Id el Fitri is just 21 days to go..and so far, I can hardly wait for Id el Fitri, I miss my family and pals so badly!! it's been almost 7 months I didn't back home...huhuhu...that's why I am so excited that I'll be home soon :)
so, Happy Ramadhan Mubarak!! may Allah bless us :)

a bit bit bit up date..

It's already 2 months since I applied new title for my mini thesis..but, I haven't made any remarkable progress yet. I am stuck with the chapter 2, and 3...moreover, my department has announced the new method in writing thesis couple weeks ago, and it feels like, ruining my mood!!
But, it's okay, let's do it!! I do believe that I can make it!!!!

up date today

Today, as I've told you all before, I got my second consultation session with my lecturer, it was fun, and great!! by the way, today is Mr. Reza's birthday...happy bday my lecturer!! wish you all the best!! : ) so, we commenced our consultation with a small birthday surprise party hehehe...
Mmm..back to topic, I have to change my tittle again, my lecturer told me that I'll meet so many obstacles and troubles if I still use the tittle..so, he gave me new alternative, of course I accepted it!! :) it doesn't matter for me, because the most important thing for me is, I get new progress day by day, so I can confidently say that I can graduate by August...amin!!!
keep fighting guys!!!

re-spirit-ize part 2

been growing in a broken family, sometimes can be so hard especially for me..I've lost my childhood and all the joyful think in it, I never feel happy when I was home, there is always something wrong if I was there, even until now, I never really can feel how "home sweet home" feels like. Sometimes, I wonder, what if my mom and my dad never divorced, and they still be a couple, may be my life will never be this hard. At least, I can get full love from both of them...
But, I never give a damn with all of this things..I mean, no use regretting something that has been passed, and it can't be turned back again..Now, the only thing I have to do is struggling!! I don't want to lose my future like I've lost my past, "my supposed to be delightful childhood"..I don't wanna be a loser anymore, a man who can't do anything to change his own life...
I have talent, I have opportunity to be success, I am not bad in class, and I know that God has given everybody a special talent so they have the same probability to be successful people...
So, this is my turn...showing that I can be better!! I'll do my best!!!!