What's next?

Last Tuesday, Oct 23rd. the result of english test has been announced, and surprisingly I made it!! O My God! I was really surprised, yet happy! because actually I was a bit hopeless with the test, you know, yes, I have tried my best, preparing for the test, but since I didn't have much time for this, so I was still confused and not sure with my proficiency.. but, still, I don't wanna lose hope!

And this is it.. I am preparing for my final test, the test will be held from 5-9 November 2012, and it will consist of psychological test, IT and interview!! O my God! I am so nervous!! but fortunately, I have had some psychological test books, and a computer book as preparation for this stage.. And about interview section?  hmmm... still have no idea, but hopefully, I would be given questions that I can answer, and I wouldn't do stupid things! this is really important for me...

Okay, I think it's enough for today, i'll catch you later...

have a nice week-end everybody :)

Next!

So, the first test result has been announced last Tuesday (Oct 9th) and Alhamdulillah, I pass this test, and will be facing the next test, Language test, and yes, my choice is English ( I chose English because I have no confidence to take French as my language, because I think it's gonna be harder to compete with contestants who graduated from French Literature, since they learn it intensively for 4 years).. 

the test will be held at LIA Pramuka, this Sunday. oh my God!! I am so nervous, moreover, I only have a little time to prepare this! fortunately, I've brought my TOEFL Books from home, so I don't need to buy it again..

And, here we go! Bismillah.. as I told lately on my Facebook status "more effort, less expectation" let's do our best! :)

the test

So, the test is already over.. well, I think I am too late to post it here, since the first test was held almost a month ago! yes, September 1st, and now, it's already September 30th.. I was kinda busy recently, moreover, my laptop was hit by virus and malware so I was not able to go on line and up date some stuffs here.. So, here's a bit update about the test :

The test was divided into two parts, the first one, named "Tes Kemampuan Dasar" this test is designed to measure our knowledge about governance, math, and basic communication skill, for me, this part is not that difficult *( no, I am not bragging about how smart I am! :D but for sure, this test is easy to do, provided that you've read UUD 45 before, and if you're getting use to using basic math in daily life), here are some example of the questions of Tes Kemampuan Dasar : 

1. Pasal berapa dalam UUD 45 yang membahas tugas MK?

2. Pasal berapa dalam UUD 45 yang membahas tentang membela negara?

3. jika A mampu menyelesaikan soal selama 90 menit, si B menyelesaikan soal selama 60 menit, dan si C mampu menyelesaikan soal selama 45 menit, berapa menit waktu yang mereka butuhkan jika mereka mengerjakannya bersama-sama?

oh for your information, this test type is multiple choice.. and unfortunately, I forgot how many questions provided in that test (-_-") but I guess it's about 200 questions, and it takes about 2 hours *(if am not mistaken)

The second part of the test, was held after lunch break *(and we got free lunch there.. ayeee!! :D ), this test is designed to measure our knowledge about international issues, and our capability to analyze some cases, not only in bahasa Indonesia, but also in English! yes! this test consists of multiple choice, short essay, and long essay, long essay consists of 2 parts, the first part is written in Bahasa Indonesia *( 6 questions, but for S1, we only had to choose 3 of them), and the second part is written in English *(it consists of 6 questions, and for S1, we only had to choose 3 of them as well). This test is really hard for me, especially the essay part, first, I am not getting use to write in English, and secondly, my hand was way too fatigue to write, arrghh!!  you know, we had to make 6 long essays, only in 3 hours, hoaaahh!! what a cruel!! (T,T) 

Okay, here are some example of the questions :

1. Siapa nama ketua ASEAN dan dari negara mana?

2. Diantara negara-negara di bawah ini, negara mana yang tidak berbatasan dengan Indonesia?

3. Apa tema keketuaan Indonesia di ASEAN *(I forgot the year)

I think that's all folks.. let's hope for the best! hopefully everything will be alright, and have a nice week-end :)

Am I Ready for this?

Kemlu- previously known as Deplu- has started its opening recruitment for this year, and I am so excited knowing this news! it feels like, I am one step closer to my dream.. even though there is no guarantee that I'll be accepted, but dunno why I am just happy, and as I told you before.. capital EXCITED!! But, there is something bugging in my mind, am I ready for this competition? how good I am for this? do I deserve it?

First of all, I forgot almost everything that I've learn during my presence on campus, like theories, approaches, concepts, and stuff. Well, actually, I still have some time to refresh it, and I hope it won't be too late! amin!

Secondly, I don't even keep my self up to date with international issues nowadays! well, I know that there is a massacre in Syria,  Muslim Rohingya Persecution in Myanmar, Eurozone crisis, Bombing in Bulgaria, etc, but, that's it.. I don't know specific information about this *(I usually use "5 W + 1 H" question to measure how depth my knowledge about something, if I could answer 5 question, it means I have sufficient information and knowledge, and unfortunately I only can answer 2 out of 6 questions for each issue that I've said above)

and last but not least , My English and French language skill are not as good as it used to.. huhuhu.. I really hope that I have time to refresh my English and French, because as far as I know, that there will be an essay and interview test in english or french *(depends on our choice) 

Okay.. enough worrying about those things! time to get prepare! let's do our best! Ora et Labora! let's do our best and let God do the rest :) 

Let Me Break It Down to You

diplomat (dip¦lo|mat)

Pronunciation: /ˈdɪpləmat/

noun

• an official representing a country abroad.
• a person who can deal with others in a sensitive and tactful way.
   
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 That's my dream.. that's my destination for now.. let's get prepared!! :)

December to June

Time flies so fast, the last time I posted here was December 2011, and it's already June 2012, and surely there are so many things happen in my life, I have been through my hardest time, my grandma has passed away at May 1st 2012, and a week after, I was accepted as local staff for Indonesian Embassy in Quito Ecuador, but since I was still in grief of being left by my very beloved grandma I decided not to take this chance, the precious one.. :'( So sorry, but it's going to be hard for me, facing my hardest time in other country, away from my family. I need their support,and fortunately they support me to date,and respect my decision not to go to Quito, while waiting for new recruitment at Kemlu.

Dear Dad, and Mom, and my brothers and sister, thank you for being here, and giving me such a great support, you know, I have promised to my self that I won't let you all down again because of me, I will show you all that I will make it! chasing my dream, and make you all proud of me..

Dear beloved late grandma, I know that you're in the most beautiful place near God's throne, now.It's time for me to prove my love to you, I will always pray for your happiness there, I know that you deserve the best. You are a very nice person, full of love and you've taken care of people during your lifetime,, I love you so much, and miss you.. 

Now, it's time for me to re-prepare everything, my English language, my French and Spanish language, I also need to keep update with current issues, either local or international, and also improve my computer skill, and last but not least, I have to pray harder to God :)

Still wanna be a diplomat?

This question is now getting even harder to answer.. to be honest, from the very bottom of my heart I would answer "capital YES", but, you wouldn't see me as excited as I used to! huhu.. since our government has made decision not to accept new civil servant this year, and may be until 2013, due to over-budgeting and efficiency, that's why I have to conduct the plan B!! yes, I don't wanna wait until 2013 by doing nothing, right?! I have to be more realistic too.
So, now, I am accepted in an international bank, and will start to work this month, the thing is, what if I finally enjoy my job there, and I decide not to continue dreaming to be a diplomat?! ahhh.. everything that I've been doing to reach that dream will end up like a waste. hmmm.. actually not that waste, I believe that nothing is in vain! everything has its own value, and it's worth struggling for what you've been dreaming of! yes, it is! My knowledge about international economics, would be very useful as a basic to start my banker job, well, may be it's not as specific as Economics student, but, hey, I know what is inflation, deflation, I know a little about export, import, tax, and so on, I know about supply and demand analysis, and stuff.. but yeah, as I told you before, not as specific as economics student.
Back to the question, if you ask me now, then there will be a big question mark on my mind, do I still want it?! can I!? of course I have to believe in my self, if I don't then who will?! so, while waiting until 2013, I can learn more, more, and more, about international current events, pay more attention to my surrounding, learn English and French again, and beneath it all, keep praying, keep believing, keep in faith!! yes! I CAN!

I wanna be a diplomat!!

Yes!! that's my dream! even I've been dreaming of it since I was a kid, okay, actually, when I was a kid, I often watched TV, especially "Dunia Dalam Berita" , there, I remember, the most favorite scene was when a President, or Prime minister, or king, or minister who is visiting Indonesia, they came out from aircraft, waving their hand, and smiling, while our President, and the officers have waited there, and give a warm welcome, with red carpet and bouquet.. that scene was really impressive for me, and since then, I've been interested in International Relations things.

And now, here I am, I've been graduated from my university, I took International Relations as my major, and am still waiting for open recruitment at ministry of foreign affairs, while preparing everything for it!! reading newspaper, improving my english and french skill, reading international relations theory's books, and so on...

I hope I could be accepted there this year, but if I fail, I am going to retry it next year, I'll never give up hope! I'll keep fighting!! chasing my dream, and making it true! because I am a diplomat!! :)

Ramadhan

Hello Blogspot...sorry for not coming by here for very long time, firstly I forgot its password, and secondly I have nothing to tell here, since I'd already written it on my another blog.. so, I try hard to remember my password, and taraaa!! this is it!! I can up date my blogspot :)

And today, is the 9th day of Ramadhan, which means, Id el Fitri is just 21 days to go..and so far, I can hardly wait for Id el Fitri, I miss my family and pals so badly!! it's been almost 7 months I didn't back home...huhuhu...that's why I am so excited that I'll be home soon :)
so, Happy Ramadhan Mubarak!! may Allah bless us :)

a bit bit bit up date..

It's already 2 months since I applied new title for my mini thesis..but, I haven't made any remarkable progress yet. I am stuck with the chapter 2, and 3...moreover, my department has announced the new method in writing thesis couple weeks ago, and it feels like, ruining my mood!!
But, it's okay, let's do it!! I do believe that I can make it!!!!

up date today

Today, as I've told you all before, I got my second consultation session with my lecturer, it was fun, and great!! by the way, today is Mr. Reza's birthday...happy bday my lecturer!! wish you all the best!! : ) so, we commenced our consultation with a small birthday surprise party hehehe...
Mmm..back to topic, I have to change my tittle again, my lecturer told me that I'll meet so many obstacles and troubles if I still use the tittle..so, he gave me new alternative, of course I accepted it!! :) it doesn't matter for me, because the most important thing for me is, I get new progress day by day, so I can confidently say that I can graduate by August...amin!!!
keep fighting guys!!!

re-spirit-ize part 2

been growing in a broken family, sometimes can be so hard especially for me..I've lost my childhood and all the joyful think in it, I never feel happy when I was home, there is always something wrong if I was there, even until now, I never really can feel how "home sweet home" feels like. Sometimes, I wonder, what if my mom and my dad never divorced, and they still be a couple, may be my life will never be this hard. At least, I can get full love from both of them...
But, I never give a damn with all of this things..I mean, no use regretting something that has been passed, and it can't be turned back again..Now, the only thing I have to do is struggling!! I don't want to lose my future like I've lost my past, "my supposed to be delightful childhood"..I don't wanna be a loser anymore, a man who can't do anything to change his own life...
I have talent, I have opportunity to be success, I am not bad in class, and I know that God has given everybody a special talent so they have the same probability to be successful people...
So, this is my turn...showing that I can be better!! I'll do my best!!!!

re-spirit-ize

Yay!! I've already found 4 of 7 questions that have been given to me, it means, I still have 3 questions to answer, I hope I can find it immediately amin! My thesis is still on progress...anyway, I'd like to congratulate my friend, Dwi Annisa Harahap, she is the first person in HI unpad 2006 who graduate, and the greatest thing of all is, her graduation day coincided with her birthday coolness!! isn't it?! I bet that was her best birthday gift ever!!! congratulation and happy bday dwi!! wish all the best for you! :)
My attendance to dwi's graduation ceremony has inspired me a lot, not to give up, and never stop struggling to reach my dream..I do believe that everything is possible, as long as we never stop trying even if we failed..so, start from now, I am gonna be tough more and more, no matter how hard the problem is, no matter how much the obstacle is, I am gonna make it!! for sure :) insyaAllah

Still in Trouble

I have some troubles with my internet connection in these 2 days, and it's so bugging me, because I can't open some web pages, includes my blog ..but now, the connection has been back to normal *(I hope)..at least, I can open my blog page and update it.. so relieving :)
Yesterday, I got a new source for my thesis, that is Barry Buzan and Ole Waever's book its tittle is "Regions and Powers The Structure of International Security" published by Cambridge University Press 2003". This book has not direct correlation with my thesis, but there are some aspect sthat can be used as consideration in explaining East Asian Community based on its history and its security problem..
Hmm...this friday is gonna be my first time having consultation with my lecturer..huhu, when I called him by phone yesterday, he said that we had to talk first, so he could decide whether he is able to guide me or not...*(I hope he can, because he is one of my favorite lecturer, since he is so responsible, and professional being a lecturer) so, please pray for me, pals.. :-)
and finally,have a nice day pals!!!

updating my thesis

my thesis is still ongoing and now, I am about to start new chapter..no! no! no! I haven't finished my first chapter yet, but, since I am stuck on it so I decide to skip it, and jump to next chapter, hope it will work.. Till now, Am still looking for the suitable approach and theory for my thesis, as I told before,in my last post, that there is a probability to use "neo-liberal institutionalism" to explain the phenomenon of regionalism between East Asian Country (Japan, China, and South Korea)..

and now, my problem is I can't find books or international journal as sources *(senior told me that at least I have to use 3-5 journals, while as far as I know, getting journal is not free, and it'll be a bit difficult finding journal in my faculty library..so I must go to other university's library..hufth!!) . Anyway, it's kinda weird for me, since my university is one of the best university in west java, and it is well known as university with good curriculum and facility, but in fact, the book's collection in its library is not as complete as I thought. pheww!

Talking about holiday, today is Chinese New Year, and Valentine's Day, so I wanna say "Happy Chinese New Year people!!! Gong Xi Fat Chai!!"!!! and for you who celebrate the Valentine's Day, I wanna say "Happy Valentine's Day!!" :-)

roll it back!

life is like counting down, from the day you were born, until the day you die..and it's full of surprises that sometimes we never expect. Just couple years ago, I was sick of choosing which department I would enter to, now, I am sick of finishing my thesis. Couple years ago, I was afraid of my failure to be accepted in university, now I am afraid of jobless after my graduation.
Time passes so fast, as thought it doesn't let us to take a rest, to take a deep breath and relax. everything must be fast, done quickly, without any excuse. My God!!!
this is so exhausting, sometimes I just want to scream out loud, and shake this stress away.. I miss my childhood badly..suddenly I want to be a child again, and rewind the happy memories

keep spirit, pals!!

morning all!! today, i woke up late, and almost missed morning pray, but, thankfully I didn't miss it. My first activity after praying was starting to do my thesis, I suddenly got some ideas, so, I just typed it before they vanished from my mind. while typing, I searched some data too, and got some..Alhamdulillah..hope this spirit in doing thesis will remain, so I can finish my thesis by August this year.
I am reading some books now, to find out which theories that I want to use for explaining my thesis, hope I choose the right one. Some friends suggest me to use liberal institutionalism, but I am still looking for other alternatives.
here are some books I read :
1. Pengantar Ilmu Hubungan Internasional by DR.Anak Agung Banyu Perwita & DR. Yanyan Mochammad Yani.
2. Regionalism in World Politics by Louis Fawcett & Andrew Hurrel
3. International Relations Theories : Discipline and Diversity by Tim Dunne, Milja Kurki & Steve Smith
I seek other books too, but, since the library still not open yet, seems like I must be more patient in finding other literature.
besides books, I also use internet references, like some sites that I've opened and bookmarked, I got many clues too, and am happy because of it.. :-)
so, people, whoever you are, whatever you do, keep spirit!! never give up!! and do not be afraid to take the risk! this is how we can get our success right?! it's better failed than do nothing..at least we can learn from our failure to be better, can't we?!

mmm..anyway, my dvd's trouble is getting worse, I think I should get it repaired,,because it's so bugging me..I want my laptop in fit condition..but, it said that repairing dvd can take so much money, while, I even don't have sufficient money for my self untill end of this month..hufth! just hope for the best :-(

Trouble!!!

gosh!! i am so upset!!! my laptop's dvd is broken I don't know why, since I rarely use it, I prefer using my dvd player that I bought couple months ago..arrgghhh!!! why it must happen when I am broke?! sh*t!! last time I used it, it still worked perfectly, but, it was a little bit hard to close, then I forced it, and TARA!!!! now, my dvd totally doesn't work at all..it can not detect every CD I insert into it, but the indicator lamp is still fine, arrghhh!!!
fyi, I am not a movie freak who rents many DVDs and play it in my dvd rw, I only use my dvd to copy some MP3 files, and some installation CDs..that's it!! iewhhhh!! I hate such situation! it's like a mood killer for me!!
I hope my laptop won't be in trouble again, at least untill I get my own job and I buy the new one..I am so afraid of this damage, because it will affect to my thesis, how can I do my thesis, meanwhile my laptop is being repaired, moreover if it takes more a day to fix?!!...huhuhu..(T,T)
God, please!!

first think first

Hi, all..how's life?! :-)
first of all, I'd like to introduce my self, my name is Didi, I am now in my last year in International Relations department in a state university...called Padjadjaran University, in Bandung, the capital city of west java Indonesia..
This blog will be written in English and French, depends on my mood in which language I want to write, but, please note that I am not good at both of those languages, I am still learning, and need more practice, that's why I use those languages in this blog. Actually, this is not my first blog, I have already had 2 blogs before, but one blog has been inactivated, so I have only one blog beside this one.. you can visit my blog anytime you want, feel free to click this so you can go to my another blog..
May be, this is it for today, the greeting and introduction...hope you enjoy it!! and happy blog-walking!! :-)